As you may have guessed, the delay in getting this week’s update out to you is because I am still not feeling good.
The last 10 days or so have been spent in bed… I am daily fighting fatigue and struggling just to get out of bed. My overall pain level has remained around 4 – 6 on a scale of 1 – 10.
That said I haven’t been in the best of moods (just ask Jeralynn), while not angry I just have not wanted to speak with anyone, return emails, or do anything else for that matter. My apologies for the phone calls and emails not returned, or anything else that I haven’t followed up on.
With all honesty, the last several days have purposefully been spent reading the Word of God and spending time in prayer. Why do I say purposefully? Because I haven’t had the energy or desire to do anything, this includes reading the Bible or praying, that said I have had to purpose to do this.
If it weren’t for having a relationship with Jesus Christ I honestly don’t know what I would do. When I feel that all hope is gone I still have the reassurance that my Lord has not forsaken me.
(Psalm 16:7-9 NKJV
7 I will bless the LORD who has given me counsel; my heart also instructs me in the night seasons.8 I have set the LORD always before me; because He is at my right hand I shall not be moved. 9 Therefore my heart is glad, and my glory rejoices; my flesh also will rest in hope.)
I received the results from the blood work-up that I had done a few weeks ago –the B12 level was normal (read more). Upon receiving the remaining results I felt as if I had been hit upside the head with a two-by-four. Not because I was receiving a death sentence; just that the realization is that I continue to deteriorate instead of getting better.
The sugar levels remain dangerously high, as do the triglyceride level; my HDL (good cholesterol) is way too low, the LDL (bad cholesterol) is just a little high; all in all these numbers continue to rise.
My kidneys are in the very beginning stages of kidney failure and the level of Vitamin D in my system is extremely low, so low in fact that I have been doctor ordered to lie out in the sun daily. Apparently the best way to raise the level of Vitamin D is thru UV rays. Now, for those of you who know me, this would normally give me a reason to start jumping up and down, you know, being mandated to sun bathe everyday. The fact of the matter is this is even a struggle for me, something I need to force myself to do.
Additionally, I have begun to loose feeling in specific areas of each foot, not the entirety of either foot, just some in each. This is a result of the neuropathy symptoms slowly increasing.
The damage to the feet and kidneys are a direct side effect of being diabetic. For diabetics who are able to stay on their meds and eat properly this should not be a problem. However, because I haven’t been able to afford to do either I am now beginning to suffer the consequences.
The good news is that soon enough (within the next 5 months or so) I should have my money. At that point my priority will be staying on my meds and eating plenty of veggies and whole grains, not just pasta and carbohydrates.
I am going to the doctor on Tuesday; hopefully he will have some insight as to what this extreme fatigue is all about. I will keep you posted as to what he says on Tuesday.
Now on to a praise report…
You all know that I have been completely relying upon God to provide for my financial needs. I would like you to join with me in praising the Lord and thanking my Savior for once again providing for me.
I was so very grateful to God when I received a check with a significant dollar amount earlier in the week (I’m not sure if I have permission to say where this came from so I won’t). My immediate response was to go to prayer and say “Thank you Jesus”. I was thrilled that I was able to call my landlord and tell him that I had some more money for him.
And then, un-expectantly, a wonderful, dear couple offered to loan me an extremely large amount of money which will carry me thru until my money comes in. I need to pay this money back, but at least I have something to carry me thru and for that I am ever so grateful. Before I did anything else I stopped and thanked God for His goodness and mercies! Once again I was able to call my landlord, but this time I was able to let him know that I had enough money to pay the rent in full.
(Psalm 116:1-7
1 I love the LORD, because He hears my voice and my supplications. 2 Because He has inclined His ear to me, therefore I shall call upon Him as long as I live. 3 The cords of death encompassed me and the terrors of Sheol came upon me; I found distress and sorrow. 4 Then I called upon the name of the LORD: "O LORD, I beseech You, save my life!" 5 Gracious is the LORD, and righteous; yes, our God is compassionate. 6 The LORD preserves the simple; I was brought low, and He saved me. 7 Return to your rest, O my soul, for the LORD has dealt bountifully with you.)
With this I am continuing to ask God for wisdom in how to spend every penny that comes thru my hands.
All that I can say is that I am blessed!
God remains in control, He is an Awesome God and I am ever so grateful that I am able to serve Him.
Prayer Requests:
~ That the fatigue I am feeling will pass and that my strength will be renewed
~ For the funds from SSDI to be made available
~ Wisdom with the finances that God has provided
Love to you all,
Diana
(Psalm 28:7
7 The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusted in him, and I am helped: therefore my heart greatly rejoices; and with my song will I praise him.)
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