Tuesday, August 25, 2009

August 25, 2009 ~ Weekly Update #52

God is good and His mercies are new every day...

First pictures of the beautiful bride and her handsome groom... wedding date August 16, 2009... I think that after realizing how expensive weddings can be they have decided to do away with a formal ceremony and are focusing on a reception only...

As you can see in the pictures they were listening intensely while the Justice of the Peace was doing the ceremony! I will have pictures with them smiling in a few more weeks.

Meanwhile, may I introduce to you my daughter & son-in-law, Mr & Mrs. Alejandro Morales.













The last several days have been filled with energy and relatively speaking, I've been experiencing good health. I'm extremely grateful to my Lord for the 'good' days and find it hard not over-doing it when feeling this good.

I've got some big plans for this week... let's see how much actually comes to be...

Last night I was able to spend some time with my two favorite boys, Nicholas and Nathaniel... I've learned that whenever my grandsons are over, or if Jennifer or Rick is willing to talk then I need to stop what I am doing... regardless of what it is. Life is too short to for 'things' to take priority over them!

The proud grandma & Nathaniel












<- Nathaniel looking up at Nicholas

Tonight (Tuesday) I am looking forward to having dinner, spending some time in prayer and having a chance to catch up with a very good friend (she also happens to be our church secretary).

Starting tomorrow (Wednesday) I will begin going thru the garage which is packed to the ceiling; the yard sale 'stuff' needs to be weeded out from the eBay 'stuff'. It's time to begin preparation for the big sale over Labor Day weekend! I need to start now because 30 – 45 minutes a day is pushing it for me... but that is my goal.

Several have asked if I am still accepting donations for 'stuff' to sell in yard sales, on Craigslist, and thru eBay... the answer is a big YES!

The next question is how can I do it alone... I can't, I depend on family and friends helping me out... so if anyone wants to volunteer to help on the Saturday of Labor Day Weekend let me know.

I'm still living penny to penny and appreciate all the treasures that have been sent my way over the past few years as well as the treasures that are currently being donated. In case you are wondering, the money that comes in from the yard sales, eBay, Craiglist, etc... has gone and continues to goes solely toward paying for rent, utilities, medication and medical bills.

The next big event for this week comes Saturday when I will be having a surprise guest... well it's not a surprise to me... but it will be to those of you who know this person. Sadly, I need to be told about surprises in advance; that way I can rest enough to have the needed energy to participate in said surprises.

And we are back at Sunday... going to church and worshiping with my church family is so very important to me... and then it's home to hopefully spend lunch and the rest of the afternoon with my children and grandchildren.

Like I said, I have big plans for this week... we will see how much actually gets accomplished. There is always an open invitation for me at Holy Cross Hospital if things get out of control... the problem is every time I think I'm going for a short visit to reunite with the ER staff I end up staying for a few days.

Now for a health update... I'm trying a new approach in regards to my health.... I finally made the switch to a new doctor who is just a short distance from home... it makes it easier for those who transport me to/from appointments. She is across the street from Holy Cross Hospital which is an added benefit to allow for easy access if I need immediate testing done.

I'm trying to get control of little areas of my health and then slowly expand until every area of my health is under control... right now I'm working hard at exercising every day. Now you need to understand that exercise for me consists of using an upper / lower body cycle... I'm trying to dedicate 15 - 30 minutes a day using this machine... this means using it whether I'm having a 'good' health day or not.

It appears as though I may be gaining some control in the area of diabetes ... for the first time in a long time my sugars are decent. I was doing so good for so long and then last year there was a period of time that I could no longer afford the medication and I had to stop taking it... that really messed me up.

I'm so thankful that I now have a supply of test strips, syringes, insulin, and pills to treat the diabetes part of my health.

It's still a struggle to always eat right... sometimes because I just don't want to... sometimes for lack of the right kind of food... but I've definitely made this a priority and it's constantly a work in progress.

When I was hospitalized a couple months ago it was for a couple reasons; because of a COPD flare-up, but more importantly it was due to a rapid heart rate. I had been experiencing a rapid heart rate for quit a while but it never showed up while I was at the doctor. I was grateful that my heart decided to act up while I was in the ER...

The doctors believe the problem appears to be the result of an electrolyte imbalance; well, that along with a magnesium and vitamin D deficiency. The vitamin D deficiency is also believed to be the cause for my aches and pains (muscle and bone).

In addition to diabetic medication I'm also making sure I have a supply of medication to treat COPD along with the mineral and vitamin deficiencies.

The other areas of health that I am working on but haven't yet conquered are high blood pressure, high and low cholesterol (the bad is too high and the good is too low), high triglycerides, migraines, vertigo, diabetic neuropathy, kidney disease, needing to be on oxygen... and the list goes on.

Yes, I realize the importance of dealing with each of these diseases, but it's walking a fine line of having the money, making the time and putting forth the energy into this fight for life.

There was a time that I wasn't sure it was worth the fight... for those of you who might care, I've decided to move forward with this fight for life!

If you read my previous postings then you may recall my writing that God is getting ready to do great and mighty things in my life. With each new day He continues to reveal Himself to me in ways that I can't explain.

Sunday at church was a milestone in my walk with my Lord... He removed yet another layer from my eyes.. I was able to see Him clearer then I had ever seen Him before... I didn't think that I could get any closer to my Savior then I had been... but WOW! I'm so excited about whatever it is that He has planned for my life.

Those of you who have known me for a long time may have known me when I "thought" I was a Christian... I thought I was going to heaven... I did all the right things and I even knew what to say.

I now believe that if I truly had a relationship with my Lord and Savior I would have never lived the life that I led... a life that I now look back on that was full of sin and regret.

God gives us warnings in the scriptures as to what our punishment will be for sinning... if you die without turning from your sin and receiving God's gift of salvation then you will be punished for your sin. Without question... you will spend eternity in hell.

It's not all bad news, He has given us a way out... by confessing and renouncing our sin we can turn to Him for deliverance.

God is always faithful to His people; He is a merciful God. To those of you who say that you are saved... take a look at your life. Is there a consistent work of refining and polishing going on in your life? As my Lord continues to make apparent those areas in my life that are not reflective of His work in my life it is up to me to pray and seek forgiveness, to ask for deliverance for whatever it is that He has revealed to me.

If you are claiming to be a follower of Jesus Christ and yet you continue down a path of destruction such as using the name of my Lord or listening to the name of my Lord being said in any way except for glorification and edification of His name then you will face the consequences of rebelling against God.

The Lord I serve is a merciful God... I am so grateful for the mercies He has shown on me. There are consequences for every action we take on this earth... be it good or bad... from a greater degree to a lessor degree... there are consequences when one chooses to live in sin.

The life I have now with my Lord and Savior is better then I could have ever imagined... Only God can deliver us (me) from sin. Without Him I would have no comfort or hope... because Christ died on the cross for us (me), I have a bright hope for tomorrow.

Love to all,

Diana

Lamentations 3:19-66

19Remember my affliction and my wandering, the wormwood and bitterness.
20Surely my soul remembers and is bowed down within me.
21 This I recall to my mind, therefore I have hope.
22 The Lord's lovingkindnesses indeed never cease, for His compassions never fail.
23 They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness.
24 "The Lord is my portion," says my soul, "Therefore I have hope in Him."
25 The Lord is good to those who wait for Him, to the person who seeks Him.
26 It is good that he waits silently for the salvation of the LORD.
27 It is good for a man that he should bear the yoke in his youth.
28 Let him sit alone and be silent since He has laid it on him.
29 Let him put his mouth in the dust, perhaps there is hope.
30 Let him give his cheek to the smiter, let him be filled with reproach.
31 For the Lord will not reject forever,
32 For if He causes grief, then He will have compassion according to His abundant lovingkindness.
33 For He does not afflict willingly or grieve the sons of men.
34 To crush under His feet all the prisoners of the land,
35 To deprive a man of justice in the presence of the Most High,
36 To defraud a man in his lawsuit -- Of these things the Lord does not approve.
37 Who is there who speaks and it comes to pass, unless the Lord has commanded it?
38 Is it not from the mouth of the Most High that both good and ill go forth?
39 Why should any living mortal, or any man, offer complaint in view of his sins?
40 Let us examine and probe our ways, and let us return to the LORD.
41 We lift up our heart and hands toward God in heaven;
42 We have transgressed and rebelled, you have not pardoned.
43 You have covered Yourself with anger and pursued us; You have slain and have not spared.
44 You have covered Yourself with a cloud so that no prayer can pass through.
45 You have made us mere offscouring and refuse in the midst of the peoples.
46 All our enemies have opened their mouths against us.
47 Panic and pitfall have befallen us, devastation and destruction;
48 My eyes run down with streams of water because of the destruction of the daughter of my people.
49 My eyes pour down unceasingly, without stopping,
50Until the Lord looks down and sees from heaven.
51 My eyes bring pain to my soul because of all the daughters of my city.
52 My enemies without cause hunted me down like a bird;
53 They have silenced me in the pit and have placed a stone on me.
54 Waters flowed over my head; I said, "I am cut off!"
55 I called on Your name, O Lord, out of the lowest pit.
56 You have heard my voice, "Do not hide Your ear from my prayer for relief, from my cry for help."
57 You drew near when I called on You; You said, "Do not fear!"
58 O Lord, You have pleaded my soul's cause; You have redeemed my life.
59 O Lord, You have seen my oppression; Judge my case.
60 You have seen all their vengeance, all their schemes against me.
61 You have heard their reproach, O Lord, all their schemes against me.
62 The lips of my assailants and their whispering are against me all day long.
63 Look on their sitting and their rising; I am their mocking song.
64 You will recompense them, O Lord, according to the work of their hands.
65 You will give them hardness of heart, Your curse will be on them.
66 You will pursue them in anger and destroy them from under the heavens of the Lord!

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

August 11, 2009 ~ Weekly Update #53

When will you learn???

That was the header of an email that I received from a friend after hearing of my exploits a couple of weeks ago.

I know this will come as a surprise to many of you but I can be extremely stubborn... sometimes just down right strong willed.

As my Savior walks hand in hand with me thru life I believe there are times when He just steps aside and waits to see what mess I'm going to get myself into next; then I picture Him just shaking His head...

The plan was to have a yard sale the weekend before last... with that Saturday having been the first of the month, the yard sale was planned to help pay the rent. I was extremely excited as Jen and Rick had been helping me pull this together, friends had been dropping things off for me to sell and I was anxiously waiting to see what would come of this event and how much money we could get together for rent.

Friday afternoon I was full of energy and very much looking forward to what Saturday was going to bring... I decided that I wanted to rearrange the furniture which was for sale as well as the tables that were to be used for set up.

Amongst everything else there was a sofa-bed (couch) that I wanted moved to the other side of the yard... I told Rick that I would grab one end and that he could grab the other. Before he could say or do anything I had lifted up my end of the couch and let out a yell! I did something... not sure what, but I knew instantly that the yard sale was off.

A few hours later we had returned from urgent care with three different prescriptions... one for the swelling, one for the pain, and a muscle relaxer... it's now a couple weeks later and I'm still slow in moving. I'm trying not to take the med's because I can't function when I do; I end up in bed and stay there until I've slept them off.

The yard sale was rescheduled for this past Saturday... with not having set up very much to sell my expectations weren't very high, in the end I didn't do too bad though... $200 was made and that's going directly toward my electric bill.

The next yard sale is set for the Saturday of Labor Day Weekend. If anyone is willing to help with either sorting thru the garage, setting up, or hanging out with me that day let me know... I'm planning for this yard sale to be huge!

As I mentioned above, I believe my Lord must sometimes just stand there shaking His head as He watches me make some of the choices that I do. Just like we as parents do when we watch our children make poor choices, He must want to run to us and say “If you would only listen to me you wouldn't make the wrong choice and then have to face the consequences of your decisions”.

In my last blog I mentioned that some decisions needed to be make.

God has shown me so much over the past few weeks. The decisions still need to be made and there are still no answers. But I did want to tell you what God has shared with me... to start with, God has given me peace... a peace so great that I can actually be at rest.

Psalm 4:8
I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O LORD, make me dwell in safety.

He's given me a peace that doesn't make sense in the natural mind.

Philippians 4:7
And the peace of God, which passes all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

I've spent much of the last few weeks crying out before God, praying and asking Him what, when, how, and where is He going to send me. The only answer that I have received thus far is that He (my Lord) is preparing me for something mighty, something great, something that I can't understand at this moment.

If you don't have a relationship with my Jesus then the above statement might sound odd to you. You have witnessed how God has brought me thru so much over the last few years... He's brought me thru situations that don't make sense and you have watched Him make a way when there's been no way.

All I can say for now is watch out because I know that my Lord is preparing me in every way possible for something fantastic.

As for now I don't know where I will end up... My Lord has shown me that He may move me out of California, I may need to rent a room, the possibility remains that I may need to move into a room & board facility, and He has also shown me that He may just allow me to stay right where I am.

One thing I know for certain and that is my worries are no more... my Lord has begun a work in me and it started with His promise to me that I will be filled with excitement, joy, and peace wherever I end up. I can't put into words the excitement I'm feeling towards the next phase of my life. It's like I've won 1st place but I don't know what the reward is yet... I just know it will be better than I could have ever expected.

I've said it before and I will say it again, being a Christian doesn't solve all of your problems, in fact it often makes life a bit more complicated. However, if you are truly walking with the King of Kings and Lord of Lords then He will provide all that you need physically, emotionally, mentally, financially, and in any other way that you are in need. He continues to fill the needs in my life, the one thing that I continue to focus on is that what He see's as a need in my life isn't necessarily what I see as a need in my life.

And now for some even more exciting news... This Saturday, Jennie and Alex are getting married! This was a very last minute decision... in fact the decision was made Saturday morning while Jennifer and I were working the yard sale.

She informed me that she and Alex were going to Vegas to celebrate a friends birthday this coming weekend! I told her that it would make me very happy if they would get married while they were there. It took a few minutes of prompting but the two of them agreed. I think the agreeing was in part to respect my wishes.

They wanted to wait until they had enough money to have a wonderful ceremony and reception... while this will still happen, probably later this year or some time next year... it was still my desire that they say 'I Do' now.

Anyway, the excitement is in the air... rings, a dress, she's getting her hair and nails done... the works! As for the mother of the bride, I couldn't be happier!

I won't be in attendance, but you can be certain that just as soon as I get my hands on a few pictures I will forward them on.

Just think how exciting this is for all of you... not only do you get to look forward to seeing more pictures of the cutest grandchildren in the world but you will also see some pictures of a beautiful bride and her new husband in the near future!